|
A TALE OF LEAVING
The unborn traveler within the
hermit wiped the timeless dust from his eyes and opened them
to see the land in which he would not stay. This new man that
lay dormant within another was thrown into consciousness before
even his initial leaving. Ile hermit asks why this is. "Why,"
he wondered, "do my eyes now take this land that has been
my home and only home as an unfinished painting?" Now, the
completion of the land he knew so well fell short of something.
The hermit knew now that he was to travel. The hermit knew he
was not the hermit.
From his vantage point atop
the hill he could see the wood that harbored his childhood game
the same wood that, until moments ago, had filled his heart with
that same cherubic awe of nature's majesty. Through these eyes,
the Woods seemed small and dead with autumnal color, void of
the life that he once saw there. The woods were incomplete. They
lacked, in his mind, what other wood the world might hold and
what creature is there held From his post on the hill, he could
also see the port and the dark water that roiled there.
As he looked on the port, a
great wind blew and brought some spray from the wave against
the bluff. It landed delicately on his lips and spread across
his brow, giving him a chill down the entirety of his spine.
The chill's origin, he realized, was not that of the spray but
of the thought there occurring when he licked the spray from
his lip. The 1 salty, fishy aroma that once filled him with the
feeling of the barren and lifeless, that once made him feel as
if the port was the end of his world and the cold see would swallow
all who dared brave her, was gone. He felt an entrapment. He
felt that all the land that rest eternally behind him now was
nothing but a wall, leaving nowhere to go, pushing him toward
the port and sea. That same sea that, in his child mind, would
drink his life from him as if he were the water and the sea,
the great and powerful, merciless entity, was now the only cherished
exit from a world that lay dead.
The traveler now stood and took
the whole of the land into his vision and he felt his new eternal
position in this land. The land would always be to his back and
the port, to his front. There was one question, the answer to
which lay not in the hermit mind nor the traveler mind. "I
know now that I am a traveler but, why does this come to me before
I have stepped even to the port?" For him this question
would not be answered for a long time. The answer, however, is
this: To be a traveler, one must leave something behind. If one
is unconscious of ones leaving until it takes place, they have
not, in fact, left anything but made a home and become a hermit
where they stand. The traveler and the hermit must exist together.
The hermit must always be there to seek refuge and home wherever
he is. The traveler must always be there to be conscious of the
land ahead. The point at which they become one is in that moment
right before embarking where the traveler feels the need to go
on and the hermit, aware of this need, looks upon his once home
and together, they weep.
He stood there and watched a
ship come into port. He watched it as it came over the fogged
horizon, slowed to position and docked. At once, he hurried down
the hill straight to the port and the docked ship. He got the
attention of a sailor who apparently did not speak his language.
The sailor retrieved the captain who inquired what he wanted
in a heavy and foreign accent. They agreed on a fee and the traveler
set sail with the ship the following day. He look on his once
home as it disappeared over the water and gave back one salty
tear to the breathing sea. He knew not where the ship was headed.
By Brian powell
|